Sometimes Sky (2007)

The Rain Song

Sleep now, you're on the edge of breaking down.
Breathe now, you can't forget that one.
Rain fell, and you're still along that same wet road.
Oh I'm only twenty one and I'm already so low.

When I'm in no pain, I'm so alive.
I hate my face when I take my pills.
I'll live this way and I will until I'm gone.

But I'm okay. The topics change. I'll be so great. I'm on my way.

It feels like rain when ever I flare.
On cloudy days I become aware.
Rain comes and goes, but when it comes, it likes to rot.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney

Worth Remembering

I'm walking backwards looking for my heart I lost it when it caught your page.
The water flowing from my eyes has caused a river.
The next thing I remember is the ground feels better when you're on your feet.
The chances of survival became slender.
Months after death, I became alive and well.
I started jumping pages again. Then one story caught my eye. Time to remember.
The tale starts with a guy and a girl who are falling for their every move.
Something tells me that this story last forever.

Let's make this the first thing worth remembering. Your aroma is known.
Let's make this the first time we decide here as one.
This disease called love is all I have and it will show.
Just swallow this rose and then let go.

This fairy tale's in my mind as I lay back with my head on the grass.
The blank horizon is the center of attention.
My eyes are closed as I begin to hold the hand of the girl from the story.
There is no other word to describe perfection.

This story’s never ending. As I read I keep pretending.
There are chapters full of wonders, and I want it all; but I have it all.

Every time I fall, I fall for you.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney 

Disease

I've opened up my eyes. I've sacrificed my time.
I can't just stop sitting here with this girl on my mind.
She's halfway to heaven. She's flying.

Oh she's there, and I'm here but she's close, so I'll reach for her in the sky.
And I'll grab on her leg. So she's here with me.

Darling, you're my disease. I've fallen to my knee.
Jordan, you've won, you've beaten the real in between my lungs and what's left in my chest.

I'm loving her green eyes. Her wings are labeled mine.
I’ll bring her down to me.

How will you take this? Will you break this over your knee?
And will I make it, or place it out of my reach?

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney 

Is This Over Now?

Where's the knife? I'm carving at the sky.
I'll cut a piece for you. Where's my life?
I'm falling in a cave full of tar. What do I do?
I'm stuck in time. There are questions on my mind.

Is this over now? I just can't see it being over now.
I just won't believe in fire, but it's burning now.
I'm about to fall over.

I’m blind. I can't see.
I take my hands and throw them at my face.
I took a fall to my knees.
I came to realize my legs are broken.
My bones are dry and my body's slowly dying.

And then when every where I walk my feet don't seem to meet.
Every word I speak is meaningless to me.
My body's going bad. My rose is fading red.
This burning's never ending and it's raging through my head.
It’s downcast eyes again.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney

In The Dark

I'm in the dark. I'm freezing.
The ghost is in my skin.
I'm paranoid, I'm fleeting. The stars are my light.
It's dim, and I need more light.
Can I breathe tonight?

Is this me, my life?
Is there a reason for pain all night?
Will I be alright?

I'm in the boring season. It seems like no one's here.
But all around is reason to live.
It's only fear that pulls the trigger.
Will this last forever?

It's time to see inside.
Is there medication that's right?
Will I be alright?

I don't want this. Please take this back.
God, I'm so scared. It's time to relax.
Twenty seconds left for this time.
Will the next one hurt more? I'm fine. Why not?

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney

Does Anybody Know?

It could be the hundred mile drive.
It's a story never ending.
It's the shadows left behind or the rare internal bleeding.
It could be the days left in my life.
I'm going backwards on this flight.
Love's illusion has a meaning. Is love what you decide?

Then go! You have to see that I'm down, so walk on me.
I hate the way this feels. It's real; do you feel better?

Does anybody know her love is fire in my eyes?
Can anybody see that it's burning through my head?
Does anybody want this crime? Just go and bury me tonight.

Sometimes I stare into space.
I then pretend you are there with me.
Then I break down and sail away. I travel east right through her heart.
I'm simply lost. I can't find my way.
Have I become all that I've hate?
Love is stress, love is forgotten. Love's red has turned to gray.
Now I must live so strong. This heartburn's lost all it's pain.
I feel so sedated.

Now I know an over turn of luck won't change what was written.
And I know I'm happier now than ever.
I found someone that I adore.
Just bury me tonight.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney

Fallen Dove

There was no more that I could have felt at that funeral.
I hate to send this rose to another world.
I miss her. Now this curse is all I ever have.
It's hard to believe that a dove could fall from the sky.

Everyday I live this curse. I remember what it's like.
I remember her last night.
Everyday the scars get worse. Her pictures haunt my sight.
My clothes, they feel so tight.

And I pray, but everything’s still backwards.
It's so hard to make out her face.

My words are tied, my throat is sore.
I'm restless every night. My hopes are in denial.
Our group is torn, it’s caving in.
It’s a family without grace. This family’s out of place.

And I pray, but everything is backwards.
It's hard to believe that a dove could fall from heaven.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney

The Ghost In The Window

I'm sitting alone. Memories are crawling out my brain.
Now I'm back in time. I'm a ghost looking through the same window.
I'm just a little boy playing with Mike trading time away for fun.
Rebekah and Sam, I'm watching them. Making sure they're fine.

Jordan, the years are going. You just can't run that fast.
These winter leaves are slowly turning into the past.

Love enters my skin and so does this heartless virus.
I'm confused as a ghost.
The window broke, but love is stronger than my health.
She's a gem so swell.

Everything's so intense now. I hope I don't relapse.
I hope I live my life well. I won't take anything back.
I want an endless summer to relive all those years.
Next time I see a ghost I'll try to hold back my fears.
This song is never ending, there's just so much inside.
Think strong and stop pretending; just letting out my pride.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney  

This Helpless Soldier

I'm melting out my eyes.
The letter soaks all night.
The gravel hurts my skin. I'm tired of no light.
This isn't who I am. My heart lies in my hand.
There's X's on my mind. My life lies on command.

I'm also bleeding out the colors blue and white.
This helpless soldier needs another right thing to remember.
Not a barrel of a gun.
I could see you're saving; I could see you're craving nothing more than war.
Everyone is waiting here to see if they defeated hell.

This time the butterflies had forgotten how to fly.
I'm scared, yet I can't feel. This almost seems not real.
This is all deceiving. This is all conceiving more.

I need you more than ever. Don't let them send that letter.
I'm starving, shattered in their lie.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney

Sometimes Sky

Sometimes I don't care if I'm headed anywhere.
Sometimes I like to drift away and blow my worries in the air.
I just sit there in the rain with a smile up on my face.
I see what I can see. Oh I'm so happy being me.

This feeling's so great and the sky is gray.
Sometimes I just feel like everything’s right.
There's nothing better than the brilliant taste of sweeter, cleaner air.

Sometimes the sirens feel me up.
There's something turning birds to luck.
The gentle relaxation erases the insects crawling on my skin.
I want this all to last. The sky is fading fast.
What more can this sky bring? And will the sky come back?

And I want to just leave off the ground.
And I never want to let me down.
And I'll pick a cloud to float to now.
But I never want to let me down.

Sometimes I don’t care.

music and lyrics by jordan sweeney